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About Novel-Gazing

I am a writer of songs and stories, and a two-time finalist in the New Yorker’s weekly cartoon caption contest. In 2018, I published a collection of my blog posts.

Waiting for This Moment

The original Paul McCartney of the Beatles died fifty-eight years ago today, on Sunday, October 9, 1966. He was twenty-four.

I do not have confirmation that Paul McCartney died on this particular day. But October 9, 1966, falls squarely between Paul’s last well-documented appearance (when he was filmed with Ringo at the Melody Maker Awards, in London, on September 13, 1966) and his replacement’s first official appearance as a Beatle (when he was filmed with John, George, and Ringo arriving for a recording session at EMI Studios, also in London, on November 24, 1966).

In recognition of this anniversary of Paul’s passing, I am sharing a new recording—and some information I can’t keep to myself any longer. In I Know Why The Caged Bird Sings (1969), the first volume of Maya Angelou’s autobiography, the poet observes: “There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.” When this quote found me, a few weeks ago, it resonated deeply. It seemed to grant me permission to tell my tale—if only for my own relief.

Ultimately, however, I want the truth to be out there—for Paul.

I am certain of very few things in this world, but I am 100 percent certain that the original Paul McCartney of the Beatles died and was replaced. If you’re thinking, “This is rubbish,” I don’t blame you. It’s an astonishing claim. But I ask you to keep reading, if only for a good story.

The following account represents a combination of research, observation, interpretation, analysis, reasoning, and intuition. I welcome corrections, from people who were there, to any erroneous conclusions I might have reached. I am hoping to set the record straight—not add to the mountain of false information already out there about the Beatles.

Going Through a Dead Man’s Pockets

I am almost 100 percent certain that many of the songs left behind by the original Paul McCartney (as lyric sheets and home demos) were stolen by the Beatles—resulting in some of their best-known hits. A “songwriting fingerprint” distinguishes Paul’s lyrics. As it turns out, he was very prolific. Paul’s backlog sustained the Beatles for nearly four years after his death and then formed the backbone of the members’ solo careers.

For example, the original Paul McCartney wrote eleven of the twelve complete tracks on the Beatles’ iconic Sgt. Pepper album, released in May 1967—seven months after Paul’s death. These songs include “Sgt. Pepper’s Lonely Hearts Club Band,” “With a Little Help from My Friends,” “Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds,” and “A Day in the Life.” In other words, Paul wrote the soundtrack to the Summer of Love but then spent it in the ground.

On George Harrison’s acclaimed triple album All Things Must Pass (1970), the singles “What Is Life” and “My Sweet Lord” originated with Paul.

In his early twenties, Paul wrote what would become John Lennon’s most famous solo single, “Imagine” (1971); Paul penned the lyrics on stationery from The New York Hilton, where the Beatles are known to have been hosted while touring in the mid-1960s. John recorded Paul’s love ballad “Woman” for his album Double Fantasy (1980), released fourteen years after Paul’s death and just three weeks before John’s shocking murder.

Ringo took Paul’s “Octopus’s Garden” as his own; it appears on the Beatles’ Abbey Road album (1969). Paul had probably written the ditty to amuse his little sister. It was a children’s song, like “Yellow Submarine” and “All Together Now.”

Wings, the band formed by Paul’s replacement after the Beatles broke up, released the wildly successful “Mull of Kintyre” in 1977. The song hit number one at Christmastime in the U.K. and was the first single to sell over two million copies nationwide. It had been written eleven years earlier by the original Paul, inspired by his purchase, in 1966, of a farm on the Kintyre Peninsula (on Scotland’s west coast).

“My Love” (1973), “Band on the Run” (1974), “With a Little Luck” (1978), “Coming Up” (1980), and “Ebony and Ivory” (1982) are among numerous chart toppers written by Paul but recorded by his replacement.

“Sir Paul” peddled his predecessor’s songs as recently as 2020, on the album McCartney III. Music videos for Paul’s songs incorporate his original handwritten lyrics.

The foregoing is a very small sampling of the songs stolen from the original Paul McCartney. I want to note here that Paul’s replacement did contribute several songs to the Beatles’ catalog, including one track on the Sgt. Pepper album and at least one track on the White Album (1968).

I have found evidence suggesting that Paul’s songs were, indeed, recorded by others after his death. Raw footage exists of John and George in the studio, working on a song (“Oh My Love”) for what would become John’s Imagine album (1971). The two former Beatles (John on piano, George on guitar), along with John’s coproducers, Phil Spector and Yoko Ono, are trying to figure out which instruments to include on the track. Eight minutes and forty-five seconds into the video, George says, rather shakily: “It sounds to me like one of the ones where he would have had those guitarists playing the rhythm.” In this statement, “he” is Paul, and “those guitarists” are John and George. In other words, Paul would have had John and George provide the song’s rhythm on guitar, rather than have Ringo do it on drums. Presumably, George is speaking in code because multiple cameras are capturing the scene.

[Edit, February 5, 2025: I recently came across some notes I jotted down in 2022 about a video of the recording session for “Oh My Love.” It wasn’t the same video as the one linked above but contained a lot of the same footage. My notes at the time referenced a clue highly suggestive that Paul had written “Oh My Love.” The clue can be found at 5:21 in the video linked above. While John is familiarizing George with the song’s chords, he says, “That’s a Paul song there.” Presumably, John means that a particular chord, chord progression, or sequence of notes was characteristic of Paul’s style.]

Paul’s “Songwriting Fingerprint”

Over time, a convention developed of attributing full or main authorship of a Lennon–McCartney track to the musician who provided lead vocals on it. On Wikipedia, you will find statements like the following (bold and parentheses mine):

  • Here, There and Everywhere” is a song by the English rock band the Beatles from their 1966 album Revolver. A love ballad, it was written by Paul McCartney and credited to Lennon–McCartney. (Because Paul sang lead on “Here, There and Everywhere,” he is presumed to have written it.)
  • Nowhere Man” is a song by the English rock band the Beatles… The song was written by John Lennon and credited to the Lennon–McCartney partnership. (John sang lead on “Nowhere Man,” so it’s assumed that he wrote it.)
  • A Hard Day’s Night” is a song by the English rock band the Beatles. Credited to Lennon–McCartney, it was primarily written by John Lennon, with some minor collaboration from Paul McCartney. (It’s reckoned that John wrote more of “A Hard Day’s Night” than Paul did, because John sang lead on the verses, whereas Paul sang lead on the relatively shorter middle eight.)

Regardless of this “system,” if you examine the Beatles’ songs, whether credited to Lennon–McCartney, Harrison, or Starr, you will find a striking similarity of lyrical form and technique highly suggestive of a single author—whom I contend was the original Paul McCartney.

As a side note, I find it kind of humorous when John Lennon and Paul’s replacement clash over ownership of a song that neither of them wrote (Wikipedia, bold mine):

  • In My Life” is a song by the English rock band the Beatles, released on their 1965 studio album, Rubber Soul. Credited to the Lennon–McCartney songwriting partnership, the song is one of only a few in which there is dispute over the primary author; John Lennon wrote the lyrics, but he and Paul McCartney later disagreed over who wrote the melody.

I doubt this was a tug-of-war over the song but rather two lies, told on separate occasions, that happened to contradict each other.

A hallmark of Paul’s lyrics (exemplified by “Yesterday,” recorded in 1965) is a strong consistency among like parts of a song. For instance, Paul establishes a structure, meter (rhythm), and rhyme scheme for one verse and then applies the same to all the other verses—with a nearly pathological rigor. What this means is that in one of Paul’s songs, you will generally find that each verse has the same number of lines, the same line in each verse contains the same number of syllables, and those syllables are stressed or unstressed according to the same pattern. Paul also adheres to an ordered plan for rhyming from verse to verse.

Paul seems to exert an almost obsessive control over his words, as if he finds comfort in developing “rules” for a song and then writing within those constraints. One might describe Paul’s style as poetic—in an old-fashioned way. (I write sonnets for fun, so I understand this mindset.) Indeed, Paul cited English Literature as one of his favorite subjects in school. Perhaps, as a budding lyricist, Paul took his cue from Shakespeare and other poets he encountered in his studies. Alan Durband, Paul’s English teacher at the Liverpool Institute, gave a filmed interview in 1965 about Paul as an English student and as an aspiring English teacher:

Paul McCartney—a young man who came to me, I suppose, some eight or nine years ago, then quite undistinguished in the musical world but not so undistinguished as a student of English. And it was as an English master that I knew him best… In English, he had a very definite interest, and it wasn’t hard to keep him to his texts…

Playing the guitar was, from probably the age of fifteen, an obsession with him. Indeed, at the age of eighteen, about a week before he left school, he came to me and asked me my advice. He wanted to know whether he should carry on playing the guitar professionally, because he’d been offered a job in Hamburg, playing the guitar at twenty pounds a week, or whether he should carry on and become a teacher, as he’d always intended to be.

Paul’s schoolmaster gave him some sound advice, which the pupil promptly ignored. During the interview, Mr. Durband refers to having been visited by Paul and his father and receiving tickets to Beatles concerts in Liverpool; but his words are intercut with photos of Paul’s replacement. It almost goes without saying that it was the original Paul who maintained a relationship with his trusted instructor from the Inny.

The takeaway here is that Paul’s measured approach to songwriting, especially his heightened awareness of meter, is reflected across the Beatles’ catalog. While appreciating the consistency of Paul’s style, we must leave room for aberration, variation, oversight, experimentation, improvisation in the studio, etc. I will elaborate, with examples and further considerations, at another time, including a discussion of additional traits that characterize Paul’s lyrics (such as the use of internal rhyme, literary allusions, and a strong narrative progression).

I fear I am already losing readers who suffer from metrophobia, “an irrational or disproportionate fear of poetry.” But I promise: this story is about to get really interesting, with hidden messages and even a murder plot.

Couldn’t John Have Written the Beatles’ Songs?

If the vast majority of the Beatles’ original songs were written by one person, as my theory goes, why couldn’t that person have been John Lennon? I can think of a few reasons. First, the “songwriting fingerprint” just described extends to numerous songs recorded after the Beatles broke up. So, if John was the Beatles’ sole songwriter, he would have continued to write songs for his former bandmates, letting them take the credit, as they all pursued solo careers. That scenario seems very unlikely.

Second, John did not display a knowledge of poetic meter. Regarding “Across the Universe,” the third track on the Beatles’ album Let It Be (1970), John stated:

I don’t know where it came from, what meter it’s in, and I’ve sat down and looked at it and said, “Can I write another one with this meter?” It’s so interesting: “Words are flying out like endless rain into a paper cup, they slither while they pass they slip away across the universe.” Such an extraordinary meter and I can never repeat it! It’s not a matter of craftsmanship, it wrote itself.

John sounds mystified by the meter of a song he claims to have written. Yet the meter of “Across the Universe” is not a mystery to someone who has studied poetry a little. The lines of the verses alternate between trochaic (with an extra half foot) and iambic. (In poetry, a trochee is a stressed syllable followed by an unstressed one, as in “flying”; an iamb is an unstressed syllable followed by a stressed one, as in “away.”) In “Across the Universe,” running the lines of the verses together produces a driving, hypnotic quality. I suppose you could write a song as metrically regular as “Across the Universe” without intending to, but it would be awfully lucky; John admits as much in his remarks. I think it’s obvious that John knew “where it came from” (Paul), and that it “wrote itself” because Paul wrote it.

But here’s the most startling part: In the recording of “Across the Universe,” John seems to acknowledge Paul’s passing and perhaps his authorship, by saying Paul’s name, clearly, three times. Specifically, John says “Paul” following each of the first three utterances of “Jai guru deva,” at approximately 0:40, 1:41, and 2:38. John’s third vocalization of “Paul” is so clear and sustained that when I heard it again recently, I got chills. John intones this song so exquisitely I have to wonder if Paul wrote it with him in mind.

But let’s return to when Paul was still bopping around as the Beatles’ bassist.

Why Did Others Get Credit for Paul’s Songs While He Was Alive?

If Paul wrote the Beatles’ songs by himself, why was John’s name in the credits? There are a few possibilities. First, it was John’s band from the start. In 1956, John founded a skiffle group, called the Quarrymen, in Liverpool, England. Paul joined the Quarrymen in 1957; George joined in 1958. By 1960, the Quarrymen had evolved into the Beatles. Four years later, John still saw himself as the one in charge, as evidenced in a filmed interview in Adelaide, Australia, on June 12, 1964. The boys are asked, “Do you have an acknowledged leader of the group?” John says, “No, not really,” as he stands to claim the title. It plays like a joke but reflects the truth of the matter. (In the video, you will see Jimmie Nicol, who sat in on drums for eight concerts while Ringo was ill.)

Because John saw himself as the group’s leader, his ego wouldn’t allow him to be left off the Beatles’ songwriting credits. Paul, at least, got to have his name first on the Beatles’ first album, Please Please Me (1963). On that album’s back cover, the group’s original compositions, including “I Saw Her Standing There” and “Love Me Do,” are credited to “McCartney–Lennon.” On subsequent albums, however, John’s name would be listed first, cementing the sequence that would be commemorated in the myth of the Lennon–McCartney songwriting partnership.

At the time Paul’s name was demoted, George’s name was promoted. Starting with the Beatles’ second album, With the Beatles (1963), George received credit for writing the original tracks on which he sang lead. But he wrote none of them, I’m sorry to say. While Paul was alive, George was assigned authorship of “Don’t Bother Me,” “If I Needed Someone,” “I Want to Tell You,” and “Taxman,” among other songs written by Paul.

Paul clearly acquiesced to the false attribution of his songs; I can almost feel the resentment seething beneath his outward acceptance of this arrangement. But there was a reason beyond the need to satisfy John’s stubborn self-pride that the credits were being spread around: it was theorized that having multiple songwriters within the band would increase the Beatles’ appeal. In fact, moving “McCartney” after “Lennon” might have been part of this campaign—suggesting, subtly, that there was no hierarchy among the Beatles’ equally talented songwriters, who were simply listed in alphabetical order.

So, where did the Beatles’ management get such an idea?

The Think Tank That Probably Had Second Thoughts

The Beatles had started organically; they wanted to make music and entertain people. The members had no idea they were being manipulated by a think tank—which viewed the band as part of a social experiment. This organization intended, presumably, to measure the response of the youth population to the stimulus that was the Beatles. In other words, if the band was packaged in a certain way, what kind of a response would that provoke? Going a step further, could the Beatles be used to control the behavior of the demographic to which they appealed?

You might wonder how this think tank was able to gain access to the Beatles on a level deep enough to mold their style, sound, and presentation to the world. Three men extremely close to the band were also members of the think tank; they very actively exerted influence over John, Paul, George, and Ringo. The intentions of these individuals were relatively benign, I believe, arising from a curiosity about human psychology. But is it ethical to involve people in an experiment without their knowledge?

I don’t think we can know for sure whether the think tank’s interventions contributed to the band’s enormous success. But if you’ve seen early photos of the Beatles, sporting pompadours and clad neck to toe in leather, I think we can at least agree they needed some serious fashion advice. (Pete Best, seen in the linked image, was the Beatles’ drummer from 1960 until August 1962.)

The Beatles’ international popularity had the unfortunate side effect of attracting the attention of truly sinister agents. After that, the three men guiding the band, who were also members of the think tank, had little choice but to comply with a plot to murder and replace Paul McCartney.

Song for an Assassin

The Beatles performed their last concert ever (aside from the famous “rooftop concert,” with Paul’s replacement) at San Francisco’s Candlestick Park, on August 29, 1966. The group returned to England (via Los Angeles), landing at Heathrow Airport on the morning of August 31, 1966. At this point, Paul had less than six weeks to live. During the seventy-two hours prior to the Beatles’ arrival back on British soil, multiple attempts had been made on Paul’s life. Paul was unaware of these attempts, aside from feeling suddenly unwell (due to being poisoned) and noticing bullet holes where he had passed earlier.

Paul was so unaware of the designs on his life that he chatted up one of his would-be assassins and wrote a song for him. Paying homage to the professional killer’s homeland, “Back in the U.S.S.R.” would become the first track on “side one” of the Beatles’ double album known colloquially as the White Album (released two years after Paul’s death). The song refers to getting sick on a plane, which was where the assassin had poisoned him: “On the way, the paper bag was on my knee / Man, I had a dreadful flight.” Indeed, Paul was so ill that when the plane landed, in San Francisco, he parked himself in the lavatory while his future full-time impersonator descended the steps with the rest of the band, mugging for the cameras. (Paul recovered and performed with the band that night.)

I have seen photos, freely available online, that show Paul and the man who replaced him in the same location, at the same time. In these photos, Paul and his double are dressed exactly alike. Clearly, Paul was to be assassinated, and his replacement was to take over on the spot.

I will describe one such photo now but save a full discussion of it for another time. In the photo, Paul and his replacement are pictured on a boat, with some others, in New York City. Paul is the only Beatle visible; he leans against a railing at the left of the photo, conversing with a man who is dressed like a sailor. Meanwhile, Paul’s replacement sits toward the middle of the boat, with a big grin on his face. Perhaps he believes he is moments away from becoming a Beatle; or maybe his smile is a nervous one. Paul and his replacement appear to be wearing the same jacket, shirt, and tie. I don’t know why Paul wasn’t murdered on this occasion—perhaps because someone, unexpectedly, was photographing the scene.

This controversial image, in which people see two (sometimes three) Pauls, has been conflated with photos taken of John Lennon and Paul’s replacement aboard the very same vessel two years later. While the confusion is understandable, the images in question depict two entirely separate events—one that occurred before Paul’s death and the other after.

Why He Had to Go

Beatles fans might recognize today’s date, October 9, as John Lennon’s birthday. In one of life’s weird coincidences, Paul died on John’s birthday. Five years later, when John turned thirty-one, he had a party. During the celebration, John led his guests in a positively dirge-like singalong to “Yesterday” (which Paul had written about an impasse in their relationship). In a recording of this singalong, it sounds like John switches the pronoun in “Yesterday” from feminine to masculine (at 0:45): “Why he had to go, I don’t know.” Then he seems to switch back: “She wouldn’t say.” Was John remembering Paul on that day, lamenting how his bandmate had gone away exactly five years earlier?

The Podcast That Changed Everything

Over the years, whenever the “Paul is dead” (PID) urban legend came up (randomly—I didn’t seek it out), I ascertained that the one and only Paul McCartney seemed to be very much alive. I hardly gave it a second thought (and barely a first).

But in 2018, an episode of The Paranormal Podcast hijacked my imagination in such a way that I had to find out more. The guest expert was addressing “probably the greatest rock-era legend of all.” He began by saying, “For the record, I don’t believe that Paul McCartney is dead.” He went on to describe the “trail of clues” left by the Beatles that Paul had died in 1966, in a car crash, and been replaced with a “body double.” I listened with moderate interest. But when the guest said, “People looked at photographs,” and noticed that Paul was now taller, it was a record-scratch moment for me. I had been walking through my kitchen, in the midst of doing some kind of chore, and I just stopped. I felt like I couldn’t stand. I bent forward at the waist and rested my elbows on the counter, and then my chin on my hands. The show’s host, Jim Harold, sounded similarly staggered: “I don’t know that I’m convinced, but that one blew me away: that there were two different McCartneys based on height alone.”

My curiosity piqued, I devoted myself to studying photographs of the two “Pauls” online. After three long, intense days, I arrived at a conclusion: they were not the same person. I felt destroyed. Wailing, I demanded, “Where is he? What happened to that cute boy?” I had to know. For the record, while I liked the Beatles (I had acquired their compilation album 1962–1966, also known as the Red Album, in college), they were essentially “before my time,” having broken up two years after I was born. So, I was baffled by my profound emotional response to discovering that the original Paul McCartney had disappeared somewhere along the way.

I was closer to the story than I ever could have imagined.

Paul Is Dead

I would catalogue for you the seemingly endless array of clues that “Paul is dead,” but I probably shouldn’t. I went down that rabbit hole six years ago and barely made it out again. Many of the proffered pieces of “evidence” hold validity; others, while highly creative, have little or no significance. I will list a few of my favorites, which you can explore, if you’d like:

  • The Sgt. Pepper album cover depicts a funeral for Paul.
  • John says Paul’s name three times in “Across the Universe” (discussed earlier in this post).
  • George cries out for Paul, over and over, toward the end of “While My Guitar Gently Weeps.” George’s calls of “Paul!” seem to start at 3:41 but become very clear at 3:54. Hearing his anguish breaks my heart.
  • In “All You Need Is Love,” John inserts an homage to the Beatles’ “She Loves You” meant for Paul (at 3:22): “Loved you, yeah, yeah, yeah / We loved you, yeah, yeah, yeah.”
  • John’s slowed down but very clear pronouncement “I buried Paul,” in “Strawberry Fields Forever” (at 3:56, and then repeated), is an absolute classic in PID lore.

There are some pretty convincing “Paul is dead” clues that utilize backmasking. I find the sound of music played in reverse a bit unsettling, but if it doesn’t bother you, you might check out the following backward messages: “It was a fake mustache” [“Sgt. Pepper’s Lonely Hearts Club Band (Reprise)”], referring to faux whiskers worn by Paul’s replacement; “Turn me on, dead man” (“Revolution 9”); and the particularly disturbing “Paul is bloody” (“Blue Jay Way”).

I have some special words for the PID community: Thank you. Thank you for caring. Thank you for standing up for Paul and his memory. Thank you for having the courage to express your convictions publicly, even if others might question your judgment or even your sanity. Your courage has made mine possible. I feel like I am going very far out on a limb with this post, but I am emboldened by the knowledge that at least a small percentage of the population, as represented by you, has already surmised the truth that Paul was replaced. You were right. You were right.

Proof Positive That Paul Is Dead

We can pore over secret messages in the Beatles’ music and artwork, but the most compelling evidence that Paul McCartney died and was replaced is entirely circumstantial: he didn’t attend his father’s funeral.

Let me try to impress upon you how unlikely this scenario would have been, had Paul been alive when his father passed. By all appearances, Paul was very close with his father. For example, he took an active interest in Jim McCartney’s romantic life after the gutting death of the family’s matriarch, Mary. When Jim became interested in a vivacious young widow, Angela Williams, Paul had known a proposal was imminent; he phoned the evening Jim was planning to pop the question (5:10). When Paul learned the answer was yes, he drove straightaway from London, a trip of about four hours, to see Angie and her four-year-old daughter, Ruth. (In the linked video, Ruth says something interesting, starting at 6:42. Referring to Paul, she remarks, “We were eighteen years apart”; her use of the past tense would seem to suggest her brother is no longer alive.)

Paul had recently purchased a lovely house for his father in Heswall, a coastal town about ten miles from Liverpool. He had also arranged for his father not to have to work as a cotton salesman anymore, or ever again. Paul gave his father quite an unusual gift for his sixty-second birthday: a racehorse! It was reportedly well-received. I’m sure Paul felt grateful to be able to make his father’s life a little more comfortable and enjoyable.

Do these seem like the actions of a man who would skip his father’s funeral for any reason other than having beaten him to the grave?

Paul’s replacement was in Europe, touring with Wings, when Jim was buried. Mike McCartney had to lie to explain his brother’s absence: “It was no coincidence that Paul was on the Continent at the time. Paul would never face that sort of thing.” This comment is incredibly painful, but I don’t blame Mike; I’m not sure what else he could have said.

You Are Getting Sleepy

Why would Jim McCartney abide the replacement of his son, whom he loved, with a stranger? Why would Mike McCartney make his brother’s replacement the best man at his wedding? Why would John, George, and Ringo accept a new band member and move forward as if nothing had changed, aside from their clothes and amount of facial hair? Why would the Beatles’ manager and the Beatles’ producer continue to manage the band and produce their music with an imposter in Paul’s place?

From what I know of the situation, and of the players involved, the answer is a combination of coercion and hypnosis. I don’t know to what degree, if any, these forces are still in effect. Presumably, however, real relationships developed, over time, between Paul’s replacement and the people who had been close to Paul.

How to Tell Paul and His Replacement Apart

I don’t encourage anyone to spend a lot of time trying to distinguish between Paul and the man who replaced him, as this exercise can prove frustrating, but here’s a quick guide to a few of the ways in which the two men differed. If you choose to do some exploring of your own, just keep in mind that photos can be misleading or even doctored.

Stature. At the end of 1966, “Paul McCartney” was suddenly several inches taller than John Lennon and George Harrison. Until then, the three had appeared to be about the same height, as supported by their self-reports:

  • John: “just under six feet tall”
  • Paul: “just above 5 feet 11 inches tall”
  • George: “five feet ten inches tall”

(Knowing John, he was probably exaggerating a bit when he said he was almost six feet tall.)

John and George had shared a mic with Paul onstage countless times, even all three together—as when the Beatles performed “This Boy” at the Washington Coliseum, on February 11, 1964, during their first concert in America. You can really see (starting at the 6:37 mark) how close in height they were—and how cute! They probably couldn’t believe they were in the United States, in the nation’s capital, playing for such a large and receptive audience. Using the same staging, Paul’s replacement would have seemed to tower over John and George. A direct comparison is impossible, as the Beatles didn’t tour again after Paul died.

I hesitate to direct you to images showing the taller, broader man who replaced the original Paul McCartney, as arguments might be made about camera angle, distance of the subject from the camera, posture, heel height, etc. And such arguments might be valid! But I believe this small selection of photos, considered together, is suggestive:

  • Sgt. Pepper album cover, front and back (scroll down to see both)
  • Outtake from the photo shoot for the Sgt. Pepper album cover (scroll down)
  • Magical Mystery Tour photo
  • Undated black-and-white photo

Hair. Paul’s hair parts naturally on the left, as seen in his purported passport photo; his replacement’s hair parts naturally on the right, as seen in a seeming recreation of the same (hand-dated nineteen days after Paul’s death). Of course, hair can be styled against a natural part or even trained to take a new part.

I believe that Paul, toward the end, was made to wear a hairpiece at times, to conceal the way his hair fell; that way, after he was replaced, his part wouldn’t seem to have suddenly relocated. For example, as Paul boarded a plane from Los Angeles to San Francisco, on August 29, 1966, he appeared to be wearing a lopsided hairpiece toward the front of his head; his part was not visible. We have already seen Paul’s replacement as he exited the same plane, with John, George, and Ringo. (Paul was sick in the lavatory, if you’ll recall.) The replacement’s hair was styled like Paul’s, without an obvious part.

Paul was caught possibly checking the position or stability of his hairpiece two days later, after the band touched down in London. In newsreel footage, we see Paul put his right hand on top of his head (at 0:37); he then scratches his head, possibly to distract from his true intention (to make sure his hairpiece is where it should be). He concludes this shifty maneuver with an awkward pivot. In the closeup interview that follows (at 0:50), Paul’s part seems to be very well-hidden behind a thick fringe.

Eye color. Paul described himself as having “very dark (almost brown) hazel eyes.” Paul’s replacement also appeared to have hazel eyes, but they tended toward green (starting at 0:49). According to the American Academy of Ophthalmology: “Hazel eyes are a mixture of pigment color and color from scattered light, so they can look different in different lighting conditions.” Fortunately, we have Paul’s description of his own eyes, with which he was presumably quite familiar under various lighting conditions.

Face shape. Paul’s face is rounder; his replacement’s face is longer.

Vocals. To my ear, Paul’s singing voice is smokier, raspier, as on “Eleanor Rigby”; his replacement’s singing voice is slipperier, smoother, as on “Penny Lane.” Regarding these two songs: “Eleanor Rigby” (released August 5, 1966) was the last Beatles single on which Paul sang lead; “Penny Lane” (released February 13, 1967, in the U.S.) was the first Beatles single on which his replacement sang lead. Paul had written most of “Penny Lane,” but his replacement finished it. For “Eleanor Rigby,” Paul won a posthumous Grammy for Best Contemporary (R&R) Vocal Performance, Male or Female. At the same ceremony, John and Paul received the Grammy for Song of the Year, for “Michelle,” which Paul had written for his daughter in France.

Don’t Hate

Before you get too mad at the American studio musician who assumed Paul McCartney’s identity so convincingly, he had little choice in the matter—though he certainly capitalized on the gig in some less than honorable ways and failed to meet some very serious responsibilities (beyond missing his doppelgänger’s father’s funeral).

Becoming an instant megastar the likes of Paul McCartney would obviously have its perks. But I want to share just a few of the pitfalls of impersonating the Beatles’ dead bassist: Having to relearn how to play the guitar and write, because you’re right-handed whereas he was a lefty; having to study and emulate your predecessor’s idiosyncratic gestures and speech patterns; having to fake a British accent for the rest of your life; having to pretend strangers are your family members; having to describe the inspirations behind dozens of songs you didn’t write; and having to come up with fake memories of Beatlemania for an exhibition of the other guy’s photos at the National Gallery in London. Plus, when people say you look great for eighty, you can’t tell them you’re actually eighty-five!

When you think about it, Paul and his replacement share a truly unique bond: they both walked the earth as Paul McCartney of the Beatles.

Paul Is Alive (Sort Of)

[Edit, October 15, 2024: Someone I know asked me to consider deleting this section from my post, as it might damage my credibility as a reasonable, rational human being. This person typically speaks their mind and lets the chips fall where they may. I almost never do that. I am quiet and modest. I am not provocative. But out of respect for their concern, I am issuing the following clarification: I am a writer. I am able to distill both flights of fancy and truths into words. Therefore, what is written here might be fiction. Or it might represent reality. Either way, it’s my story. I am reminded that Mary Shelley first published Frankenstein anonymously because she feared her children might be taken away from her—as a woman capable of penning a tale of horror. Her full name appeared in the second edition, five years later. Do we wish Mary Shelley had censored herself, choosing subject matter deemed appropriate for a female writer of her day? Are we not glad she ultimately took credit for a book that went on to inspire generations of women authors and continues to captivate readers more than two hundred years after its release?]

So far, I’ve been talking about Paul in the third person. I don’t expect anyone to believe this, and sometimes I don’t believe it myself, but I was Paul McCartney. It probably took longer for me to accept this than it should have—not because I didn’t believe in reincarnation but because then I would have to own Paul’s pain. I was feeling it anyway, but if I accepted that I used to be Paul, I’d have the added burden of self-pity. The first few years were the roughest. I think I’ve processed much of the grief—not in any organized way, because you can’t see a traditional therapist about a past life, but through tears, lots of tears.

I know I sound like those people who discover, through hypnosis or a psychic reading, that they were once Cleopatra or Napoleon. (My greatest regret is that I wasn’t Chaucer.) But whether or not I used to be Paul McCartney doesn’t affect the fact that he was replaced by a lookalike. If you simply can’t believe in reincarnation, I get it. On the other hand, just because something seems implausible to you, or doesn’t fit into your view of the world, doesn’t mean it isn’t happening.

I get sad speculating that if people find out Paul McCartney died almost sixty years ago, they will look back and think, “Huh. We didn’t really miss him.” Debunkers of the “Paul is dead” urban legend already say things like: “If they did replace Paul McCartney with a double, they managed to find, somehow, a left-handed bass player who was perhaps even more talented than the original Paul.” I hope you can understand how painful it is to hear such a dismissive remark (though I know the speaker had no idea the real Paul was listening).

It’s hard to convey the desolation accompanying the realization that you died, and virtually no one noticed. And those who did notice—those closest to you—carried on with a complete stranger in your place! Having been betrayed so thoroughly by everyone in your life, you can only turn it around on yourself: you must not have been deserving of their loyalty. You can cry, and you do; but you cry into a void. You are perfectly alone in your knowledge. Your story is too extraordinary to share. Who would believe it? Who would entertain even the basic premises—that Paul McCartney died in 1966, was replaced by a lookalike, was plagiarized more egregiously than perhaps any other musician in history, and is now a writer in California (well, first a baby, and later a writer)?

Regarding this last premise, I could tell you that I started piano lessons when I was five, quitting promptly when I was six and leaving my parents with an expensive, useless piece of furniture. I could tell you that, as I child, I made milk-carton guitars strung with rubber bands. I could tell you that, as a preteen, I regularly sang into a hairbrush in the bathroom mirror. I could tell you that, as a young adult, I cried at the end of a documentary about the Beatles—which didn’t make any sense, because the documentary ended with the band’s attainment of success and popularity. I could tell you that I found myself fascinated with Paul McCartney’s profile, when I saw a caricature of it once, probably on the cover of Revolver (1966). I could tell you that in recent years, I returned to the piano, learned how to play a real guitar, and wrote some songs. But these aspects of my personal history, even taken together, don’t prove that I used to be Paul McCartney.

I have, however, encountered one person who seemed to recognize me. (I will speak vaguely, to protect his privacy.) This person didn’t come out and say, “I remember you from when you were Paul McCartney.” But he suggested, via seemingly out-of-the-blue comments, that he was looking through me to the cute, left-handed bass player within. I saw this individual in a professional context, typically several times a year. Following is a summary of his increasingly specific remarks, which included references to the Beatles and to celebrities whose last names begin with “Mc”—culminating in “McCartney.”

  • September 2018: First visit. No indication of recognition.
  • October 2018: Second visit. The person brought up having attended a local performance eight years earlier featuring music by the Beatles and a guest appearance by the Beatles’ producer, George Martin. He asked, “You know who George Martin is?” I said, “Yes.” He said, “Really?”
  • May 2021: As the 1970s hit “I Go Crazy,” by Paul Davis, played over the sound system, the person remarked: “Can you imagine what it would be like to have someone love you so much they go crazy when they look in your eyes?” (I was a bit offended that he assumed I would have no familiarity with such a situation.) Then he said, “Can you imagine what it would be like if everyone who looked at you went crazy?” Then he said, “Like if you were one of the Beatles?”
  • October 2021: The person shared a “dream” from that morning, in which he’d had to perform a service for a martial arts celebrity with a last name starting with “Mc,” who was due to go onstage. Later, he quoted Ringo Starr (“I’ve got blisters on my fingers!”) and brought up another celebrity whose name begins with “Mc” (Ewan McGregor).
  • November 2021: The person mentioned the movie Spy, starring Melissa McCarthy, but he said her name wrong, as Melissa McCartney. I repeated her name, but correctly. About a minute later, he recapped the movie’s cast and got the name wrong again, saying “Melissa McCartney.”

Regarding the math, I was born seventeen months and twenty-two days after Paul died. Interestingly, as Paul, I was born within five months of my mother in this life.

Learn to Fly

When Paul died, he left behind the song “Blackbird.” His replacement recorded a very lovely version of it for the Beatles’ White Album. While I was researching the “Paul is dead” urban legend, I came across a video of Paul’s replacement learning how to play “Blackbird” in the studio. The footage is quite grainy, and for a few moments, I let myself hope I was watching the original Paul—possibly working out the melody for a new song, on a break from recording something else (maybe Revolver, his final album with the Beatles). But studying the figure in the video left me with the sad truth: Paul was gone.

I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings, which I quoted at the beginning of this post, takes its title from a poem by Paul Laurence Dunbar (1872–1906), considered “one of the first influential Black poets in American literature.” Dunbar writes of a bird in a cage, whose “wing is bruised” (from beating it against the bars) and who “would be free.” At the end of the poem, we learn why the caged bird sings: as a prayer, as a plea to Heaven. The poem, called “Sympathy,” is so beautiful that I wish everyone the experience of reading it. It’s inspiration, perfectly realized. It’s the reason poetry exists as a form of expression.

I wonder if Paul encountered “Sympathy,” by chance, as I have done; was similarly astounded; and reached for the nearest pen and scrap of paper. Might Paul have written “Blackbird” to explore what happens after Dunbar’s bird is liberated, perhaps through divine intervention? What does a wounded bird, who has known life only in a cage, do with his newfound freedom? What does he have the strength to do? The more I think about it, the more I can envision a dusty volume containing Dunbar’s poem still sitting on a shelf in Paul’s London home, which remains among his replacement’s assets, as far as I know.

Paul didn’t get a chance to share his version of “Blackbird,” so I offered him my hands and vocal cords. He said, “Well, these will just have to do now, won’t they?” After watching the video (below), you might find yourself wondering: “Isn’t it hard for a novice player to sing along while fingerpicking a guitar?” But rest assured: I only make it look difficult.

What Happens Now?

Just a few dozen people follow my blog (thank you!), including bots, so I don’t expect my life to change once I hit “Publish.” Since 2021, I have been writing, recording, and posting very pointed songs about Paul’s experience—with nary a ripple. These include songs for Paul’s brother, sister, hometown, fiancée, three children, bandmates—and even his replacement.

Paul and I will be back here toward the end of next week with another new video, also recorded live on my living room couch. It’s for a song Paul left incomplete when he died but has since finished (with a little help from his friend, me).

CREDITS: The photo at the top of this post was taken by Mike McCartney, in 1962, at 20 Forthlin Road, Liverpool; I borrowed the image without asking, but I’m thinking Mike will give me a pass since I’m his brother (or at least harboring his brother in my subconscious). All links in this post were active at the time of its publishing, on October 9, 2024.

She Wrote Yesterday

Exactly one year has passed since I last posted new music. But I have not been sitting idly by—O no! In the ample hours of those twelve long and luxurious months, I have managed to produce the sum total of (drumroll, please)…one song. Hmm. Really? Just one? Well, apologies. I hope you will find that “The Love I’m Dreaming Of” (listen below!) has been worth the wait.

My guitar is my best friend—is something I wish I could say. But we did become rather close during the composition and recording of this song. Practice makes perfect, and you are about to hear how very little I practice. But I have done my best, just for you.

The Love I’m Dreaming Of

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Title:
“The Love I’m Dreaming Of”

Number:
16

Length:
4:15

Vibe/inspiration:
Chamber pop

Keys:
G major and D major

What I imagine people might say:

  • “At one point, if you listen very closely, you can hear the guitar gently weeping.”
  • “I’m not quite sure what to make of this song, but I’m open to suggestions.”
  • “What I liked most was that the lyrics contained my starting word for Wordle!”
  • “The way I see it, you can listen to this song or do literally anything else. Do that.”

Lyrics:

Oh, my baby—she wrote yesterday
About a love that went away
And how the past
Will never last
No matter what you do or say

But when she’s climbing up my stair
Cupid’s flower in her hair—
Sending me, upending me
Suspending me in air

She’s just my baby
Who fits me like a glove
She more than may be
The love I’m dreaming of
The love I’m dreaming of
The love I’m dreaming of

Oh, my baby—she made much ado
About a love that went askew
And how we first
Believe the worst
Until the “false” is proven true

But when she’s walking on my street
Any rose would smell as sweet—
Cheering me, endearing me
And hearing me repeat

She’s just my baby
Who fits me like a glove
She more than may be
The love I’m dreaming of
The love I’m dreaming of
The love I’m dreaming of

Oh, my baby—she came from afar
You can’t get there by plane or car
I never knew
She saw me, too
As I would gaze upon her star

But when she’s whispering in my ear
“There is nothing left to fear”—
Blessing me, confessing me
And pressing me so near

She’s just my baby
Sent to me from above
She more than may be
The love I’m dreaming of
The love I’m dreaming of
The love I’m dreaming of
I’m dreaming of

A Crown of Daisies

SPOILER ALERT: There are new sonnets, below, in honor of William Shakespeare’s birthday!

The actor and producer William Shakespeare was born four hundred and sixty years ago today, on April 23, 1564, in Stratford-upon-Avon, England. William’s father, John Shakespeare, was a glove-maker and wool dealer who also had a number of other occupations. William’s mother, Mary Arden, was the daughter of a gentleman farmer.

Less than three months after John and Mary welcomed baby William, Stratford-upon-Avon received a most unwelcome visitor: the bubonic plague. That year, over two hundred townspeople, representing one seventh of the population, would succumb to the devastating bacterial infection.

In November 1582, eighteen-year-old William Shakespeare married Anne Hathaway, a woman who lived in a village about a mile outside of town. Anne, born Agnes, came from a family of successful sheep farmers. William and Anne were best friends who wanted to create a family together. Theirs was the “marriage of true minds” the poet wrote about in Sonnet 116. Indeed, the two would remain wed for almost thirty-four years, until William’s passing, in 1616.

A daughter, Susanna, was born six months into their union. Hamnet and Judith arrived twenty months later. The twins were named after Hamnet and Judith Sadler, a couple with whom William and Anne were friends. The Sadlers would go on to name a son after William.

Undoubtedly, the greatest tragedy faced by the young Shakespeare family was the crushing loss of their Hamnet, in 1596, due to plague. He was just eleven years old.

In Elizabethan England, 30 to 40 percent of children died before their first birthday, and only three in five survived past the age of ten. Given these statistics, you might think the sudden death of a child would have been almost expected—and, therefore, met with a certain degree of detachment or resignation. You would be wrong.

Today I am sharing two sonnets that might have been written about Hamnet Shakespeare: the first while the poet’s son was still alive; and the second after young Hamnet had been buried in the yard at Holy Trinity Church, in Stratford-upon-Avon.

While Hamnet, the poet’s son, lived:

And after Hamnet died:

You might notice something unusual about these two sonnets as well as the last three I posted: They conclude with lyrics from the Beatles. The poems in this post, for example, borrow from “Good Day Sunshine” and “Baby’s in Black.” If you’d like, take a moment to observe how neatly the song lyrics fit into the rhythm of the poetry.

CREDITS: The image of a lamb was generated by Jay Schwartz. Information about John Shakespeare and Mary Arden came from Wikipedia. Statistics regarding the bubonic plague came from the Shakespeare Birthplace Trust and this site. Information about Hamnet and Judith Sadler came from this site. Statistics regarding child mortality in Elizabethan England came from this site.

Your Daddy’s Here

Last night I attended an event, at a theater here in Santa Barbara, commemorating the sixtieth anniversary of the Beatles’ first appearance on The Ed Sullivan Show. The entire CBS broadcast, including commercials (for Anacin and Pillsbury), was shown at the event. The original program aired live from New York City on Sunday, February 9, 1964, at 8:00 p.m., to an audience of 73 million viewers.

The night that John, Paul, George, and Ringo took the stage for the first time in America was also the night Paul’s son would be born, in Liverpool, England, where it was already the next day. These concurrent events inspired my song “Your Old Acoustic,” the first verse of which begins and ends: “You came the night all eyes were watching me… / But you could find me only on TV.”

During their two-week trip, the Beatles would also perform at the Washington Coliseum; Carnegie Hall; and the Deauville Beach Resort, in Miami Beach. While still on American soil, twenty-one-year-old Paul penned a song for his new son: “Beautiful Boy.” Reflecting on the circumstances of becoming a father exactly as the Beatles were striving to take their success to the next level, he wrote: “Life is what happens to you / While you’re busy making other plans.” In another lyric, “Out on the ocean, sailing away / I can hardly wait to see you come of age,” Paul refers to the Atlantic, the ocean that was separating him from his child at that moment.

Am I just making up a story? I might be. I am entirely capable of it. But in case I’m not: happy birthday, my son.

In Mersey’s Jewel

This song has been ready to go for a while, but I’ve been waiting for the right moment to share it with you. As they say, there’s no time like the present! “If I Roam (Bury Me in Liverpool)” is an ode in praise of home. Scroll down to have a listen! I’ve already heard it, so I’ll just ramble on here for a bit.

I started writing songs about two years ago. In all my months of marrying words to melodies, I have developed the following philosophy (a.k.a. haphazard collection of observations):

  1. Seize inspiration—or rather, let it seize you. You can accomplish more in a motivated minute than in a lackluster hour.
  2. Keep the intro brief unless you’re famous. (Notice that my intros are very short.) I’ve heard that people decide within four seconds whether they are going to listen to a song.
  3. Plant surprises throughout your song. Unexpected elements keep the listener engaged. A surprise might be a sound effect, a change in tempo, or a new instrument. (Or you could just yell, “Surprise!”)
  4. Focus on the emotion evoked. Feelings such as joy, desire, and pride connect people to your song, making it an experience.
  5. Think of your song like a guest at a party. Don’t slip out early without saying goodbye, and don’t overstay your welcome. Mingle, tell interesting stories, and leave before the guac turns brown.

Here’s a bonus tip, since you’ve been kind enough to read this far: Always have another project waiting, so you don’t belabor your current effort. You want to feel that pull toward the next song.

“If I Roam (Bury Me in Liverpool)” contains five sound effects from the British Broadcasting Corporation (bbc.co.uk – © 2023 BBC).

If I Roam (Bury Me in Liverpool)

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Title:
“If I Roam (Bury Me in Liverpool)”

Number:
12

Length:
5:13

Vibe/inspiration:
Liverpool, England; traditional Irish instruments

Key:
C major

What I imagine people might say:

  • “Shouldn’t you at least visit a place before you write a song about it?”
  • “She nailed it! Full disclaimer: I’ve never been to Liverpool either.”
  • “Who does she think she is, one of the Beatles?”
  • “Soz, but this song is boss.”
  • “Nice one.”

Lyrics:

If I fall and need a hand
Of all the places in the land—
Carry me to Liverpool
Where folks live by the Golden Rule

If the world forgets my name
And I could use some local fame—
Ferry me to Liverpool
Where I grew up and went to school

If I roam, roam, roam
My soul will call me home
If I roam, roam, roam
My heart will lead me home
Lead me home

If I’m feeling gray and sad
Or if I’m feeling fine and glad—
Tarry me in Liverpool
To meet me mates and grab a stool

If you wonder where I’m free
To be myself and very me—
Query me in Liverpool
Where kettles warm and breezes cool

If I roam, roam, roam
My soul will call me home
If I roam, roam, roam
My heart will lead me home
Lead me home

If you like the way I look
And if I kiss not by the book—
Marry me in Liverpool
G’wed and wed in Mersey’s jewel

If I die in London Town
Don’t let them put me in the ground—
Bury me in Liverpool
St. Peter’s, welcome back your fool!

If I roam, roam, roam
My soul will call me home
If I roam, roam, roam
My heart will lead me home
Lead me home (oh-oh)

If I roam, roam, roam
(Roam, roam, roam)
My soul will call me home
If I roam, roam, roam
(Roam, roam, roam)
My heart will lead me home
Lead me home
Lead me home

Fill Your Boots (or, “Phil—your boots!”)

I’m dusting off a personal favorite from the archive, for new visitors to this blog. “Your Old Acoustic” (listen below!) was the fourth song I ever wrote. I played guitar on it, too, and my old acoustic hasn’t quite forgiven me yet.

I tend to go overboard with verses; it’s not unusual for my songs to have as many as six of them! But “Your Old Acoustic” contains only two verses. It focuses instead on repetition of lines from the chorus. I wanted people to be able to sing along the first time they heard it.

Toward the end of “Your Old Acoustic,” we discover it is being performed in what sounds like a pub. When the song is over, the patrons return to talking and joking. Any intimacy engendered between the singer and the audience has evaporated. The singer has poured her heart out into a void: Her song is meant for one person, who isn’t there. Whom she has no way of reaching.

Your Old Acoustic

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Title:
“Your Old Acoustic”

Number:
4

Length:
3:34

Vibe/inspiration:
Michael Nesmith

Key:
F major

What people have said:

  • “I LOVE this vibe! This is a song I would love to sing myself. I’m sure I’m going to have it in my head over the next days!”
  • “Love it! It made me cry! So beautiful.”
  • “Very nice! I did not cry, but…it was still pretty.”
  • “Loved it! I especially like the end where you make it seem like it’s a recording in front of an audience. Very clever! I have ‘my son’ running through my head.”
  • “Fun song! I like the ‘live’ touches at the end.”
  • “Your collection of hits amazes me. Well done!”

Lyrics:

You came the night all eyes were watching me—
A pretty boy footloose and fancy-free
Toes a-tapping to my song
Rows a-clapping right along
But you could find me only on TV

And I walk
But I cannot go
And I talk
Just so you will know

Dust off your old acoustic
And join the band
Bust out and make some music
With your old man
Gone when you wore baby shoes
And now I only play the blues
Dust off your old acoustic
And join the band

A middle name was all you got from me
A pittance of a rich man’s legacy (legacy)
Thought I’d look you up one day
But I took too long to say
And you inherited a mystery

And I bring (yes, I bring)
All my loving, dear
And I sing (yes, I sing)
Just so you will hear

Dust off your old acoustic
And join the band (my son)
Bust out and make some music
With your old man (my son)
Didn’t try on daddy’s suits
I never saw you fill your boots
Dust off your old acoustic
And join the band

[Instrumental verse]

And I walk (yes, I walk)
But I cannot go
And I talk (yes, I talk)
Just so you will know

Dust off your old acoustic
And join the band (my son) (come on)
Bust out and make some music
With your old man (my son) (all right)
Gone when you wore baby shoes
And now I only play the blues
Dust off your old acoustic
And join the band

Dust off your old acoustic
And join the band (my son)
Dust off your old acoustic
And join the band (my son)
Dust off your old acoustic
And join the band (my son)
Dust off your old acoustic
And join the band

You’ve been lovely
Thank you

Did the Mona Lisa See You?

“Ma Belle” (listen below!) is the kind of song that happens when your heart takes a walk around Paris. Last May, I visited the French capital for the first time. I didn’t realize I had never tasted bread before. Or butter!

In this song, I wanted the name Ma Belle to repeat like the bells of Norte Dame—the medieval Catholic cathedral in Paris known for its French Gothic architecture, colorful rose windows, and massive bells. Notre Dame means “Our Lady,” a reference to the Virgin Mary.

For the record, I know that belle is French for “beautiful,” not “bell.” It’s just a coincidence that I wanted “belle” to sound like a bell!

I do not speak French, let along sing French. I did not intend for “Ma Belle” to have more than a simple refrain in French. But it ended up with three different choruses en français. If my grammar and pronunciation are terrible, please go right ahead and blame Google Translate!

I viewed or visited all the places mentioned in “Ma Belle.” To prove it, I made a music video! It’s a slide show of vacation photos, with a very personal soundtrack.

“Ma Belle” contains two sound effects from the British Broadcasting Corporation (bbc.co.uk – © 2023 BBC), and two sound effects from Zapsplat.com.

Ma Belle

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Title:
“Ma Belle”

Number:
15

Length:
2:47

Vibe/inspiration:
The sights and sounds of Paris, yé-yé

Keys:
B-flat major and G minor

What I imagine people might say:

  • “I’ve never been to Paris, so a spoiler alert would have been nice.”
  • “I enjoyed the vicarious trip around Paris. Next time, why not stop at a café once in a while?”
  • “The video was a nice distraction from the vocals.”
  • “I guess writing a song is one way to get people to look at your holiday snaps.”

Lyrics:

Mon cœur s’appelle Ma Belle

[My heart is called Ma Belle]

When it was just your first Noël
Did you hear Our Lady knell?
Did the merrymakers wake you, Ma Belle?

When you were learning how to spell
Did you ride this carousel?
Did it turn and whirl and twirl you, Ma Belle?

Mon cœur s’appelle Ma Belle
Mon cœur s’appelle Ma Belle
Ma Belle, Ma Belle

[My heart is called Ma Belle
My heart is called Ma Belle
Ma Belle, Ma Belle]

When you were painting with pastel
Did you visit Raphael?
Did the Mona Lisa see you, Ma Belle?

When you were old enough to tell
Did you climb the tour Eiffel?
Did you miss my arm to warm you, Ma Belle?

Mon cœur me la rappelle
Mon cœur me la rappelle
Ma Belle, Ma Belle

[My heart reminds me of her
My heart reminds me of her
Ma Belle, Ma Belle]

[Instrumental chorus]

When you were but a demoiselle
Did you gaze on Sainte-Chapelle?
Did the glass amaze and daze you, Ma Belle?

Before you bade Paris farewell
Did you walk this way, Michelle?
Did the river flow below you, Ma Belle?

Mon cœur est éternel
Mon cœur est éternel
Ma Belle, Ma Belle

[My heart is eternal
My heart is eternal
Ma Belle, Ma Belle]

Mon cœur s’appelle Ma Belle
Ma Belle, Ma Belle

[My heart is called Ma Belle
Ma Belle, Ma Belle]

Bright-Eyed as Athena

Today I am sharing the first song I ever wrote. “Bettina” (listen below!) is unique in that it has two different choruses: one in English, and one in English and German. I don’t speak German, so I’m afraid I might be singing something truly ridiculous!

Here is the chorus that contains some German:

Bettina
Meine kleine Liebe
I love you
So sehr, umso mehr

Here is my intended meaning:

Bettina
My little love
I love you
So much, even more

And here is the probable meaning:

Bettina
I would like to buy a lemon
I love you
Where is the library?

“Bettina” is a lullaby of sorts, so it’s fitting that I composed it on a children’s toy—a plastic keyboard purchased for $14.99 from the local drug store. Although I wrote “Bettina” over two years ago, the inspiration that was in my heart remains. I hope you will enjoy it.

Bettina

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Title:
“Bettina”

Number:
1

Length:
2:34

Vibe/inspiration:
Julie Andrews, Brahms’s lullaby, “Somewhere Over the Rainbow,” music box

Key:
F major

What I imagine German speakers might say:

  • “If there was any German in that song, I think I may have missed it.”
  • “You should at least watch a few YouTube videos before you start writing in another language.”
  • “Stick to English. Just stick to English.”
  • “My dog speaks better German, and before you ask, he’s not even a German shepherd.”

Lyrics:

Bettina
Bright-eyed as Athena
Hmm-hmm-hmm
I love you
So sweetly and completely
Hmm-hmm-hmm

Bettina
Meine kleine Liebe
I love you
So sehr, umso mehr

[Bettina
My little love
I love you
So much, even more]

I’m sorry that I put you on a shelf
I simply haven’t been myself
It seems a lifetime since I went away
I’ve waited all these years to say

Bettina
Meine kleine Liebe
I love you
So sehr, umso mehr

[Bettina
My little love
I love you
So much, even more]

Although we may be half a world apart
You stay with me inside my heart
I can’t believe I lived to see this day
I’ve made it all these years to say

I love you

[Instrumental chorus]

[Instrumental interlude]

My lucky stars, I have a second chance
To set aright this chaste romance
Oh, my desire is nourished by delay
I’ve traded all my tears to say

Bettina
Meine kleine Liebe
I love you
So sehr, umso mehr

[Bettina
My little love
I love you
So much, even more]

And I have waited all these years to say
I love you

I Was Not Made to Roam

teaThis time last week (as I write), I was enjoying afternoon tea at The Berkeley, a lovely hotel in the Knightsbridge area of London. To be more precise, given the time difference between England’s capital and where I am now, afternoon tea was a recent pleasant memory.

writing sonnetEarlier in the week, I had attended two performances at Shakespeare’s Globe, located on the south bank of the River Thames—so perhaps it’s not a surprise that I have a new sonnet to share with you! I jotted down some ideas for the sonnet during the interval (British for “intermission”) in A Midsummer Night’s Dream, on Tuesday. By The Comedy of Errors, on Thursday, the poem was starting to take shape.

This sonnet, like my previous two, is written from the perspective of the person who wrote the works attributed to William Shakespeare—someone very close to him, whose identity I hinted at in an earlier post. Happy guessing!

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’Tis I You Seek

spoiler alertThe poem I am sharing today strongly suggests the identity of the person who wrote the works attributed to William Shakespeare. That’s right: the pesky “authorship question” has finally been solved!

If you’ve never heard of the authorship question, it’s the controversial theory that William Shakespeare, due to his humble upbringing, was not capable of writing the poems and plays credited to him. Therefore, someone else must have written them—but who?

If you’re wondering whether William Shakespeare was even a real person:

  • William Shakespeare’s baptism was recorded at Holy Trinity Church in Stratford-upon-Avon, England, on April 26, 1564.
  • According to surviving documents, William Shakespeare married Anne Hathaway in November 1582. William was eighteen; Anne was twenty-six, and pregnant with their first child.
  • William Shakespeare’s legally validated will was signed on March 25, 1616, four weeks before his death.

If you’re curious how long the authorship question has been around, it originated during William Shakespeare’s lifetime.

As a Shakespeare fan since I was thirteen, an English Literature major in college, and a devoted theatergoer, I never had much time for the authorship question. To me, the works were the thing. Did it really matter who wrote them?

But when I realized who wrote the works of Shakespeare, I changed my mind. The realization arose more from common sense than from research. If you’d like the same joy of discovery, I have provided five clues, below!

Clue #1: The person who wrote Shakespeare’s works was very close to William Shakespeare, as this person’s plays were performed by William’s acting company. William Shakespeare belonged to the King’s Men acting company, known earlier as the Lord Chamberlain’s Men, for most of his career.

Clue #2: This person was able to write fully realized female characters in an era when women were regarded as weak and subservient to men. Think about Shakespeare’s rich and memorable portrayals of Juliet, Lady Macbeth, Desdemona, Cleopatra, Rosalind, Portia, Viola, Beatrice, Katherine (Kate), Titania, Cordelia, and Ophelia, among other female characters.

Clue #3: This person hotly encouraged a young man to marry and to have a child. Of Shakespeare’s 154 sonnets, the first 126 are addressed to a young man known as the “Fair Youth.” The first 17 of these sonnets are referred to as the “procreation sonnets.” In the procreation sonnets, Shakespeare urges the Fair Youth to wed and to become a father, so that this handsome young man might perpetuate his beauty and live forever through his offspring.

Clue #4: This person is someone whom scholars have overlooked for many years. If the “authorship question” holds merit, why hasn’t a definitive candidate for the author of Shakespeare’s works been recognized yet? What type of person would have been dismissed out of hand—or never considered in the first place?

Clue #5: A final nod to the identity of the individual who wrote the works of Shakespeare can be found in the following poem. This is the sonnet Shakespeare never wrote (until now!) about meeting the Dark Lady, the poet’s famous mistress. Of Shakespeare’s 154 sonnets, the final 28 are devoted to the Dark Lady. Remember, I wrote this poem from the perspective of the person who penned the works of Shakespeare.

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I’ll be back in a future post to let you know if your guess is the same as mine!

CREDIT: The featured image for this post is Woman in Triangles (1909), by the Czech painter František Kupka (1871–1957), photo taken by me at the Centre Pompidou, in Paris.